At least, not in the way you mean it

I thought I was done writing about my own mental health. I should’ve known better. I won’t pretend I ever genuinely believed I would never again slip into a depressive state, but it was at least a nice thought; that I had somehow resolved the chemical imbalances governing my mind through simple creative expression or willpower. It has been, after all, years since I last felt as ugly as I do now.

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But, as we both know, that’s not how mental illness operates. And so here I am, once again putting pen to paper — or fingertip to keyboard —…


It’s just 47 days until the November 2020 Presidential election, and shit’s wild. COVID-19 is rampaging through our global infrastructure, and we’re still — at minimum — months away from a working vaccine. We may finally have an anti-racist majority; Black Lives Matter protests continue to disrupt daily life in cities across the nation. ICE stands accused of performing forced hysterectomies on women detained in a privately-owned immigration jail in Georgia. The entire American West Coast is burning.

I could write about any one of these issues (and probably will). It’s clear that we are collectively, nationally, at a breaking…


I don’t particularly enjoy my birthday.

I hate the pressure that comes with my birthday. I hate people asking me what I want to do, where I want to eat, or how I feel now that I’m older. I hate the eyes on me, the constant reminders that it’s my day, the expectancy with which I’m asked if I’m having fun.

I can’t ignore it either, of course — nor do I want to, which I think is the true headache here. I do want people to remember I’m a year older, to wish me well, but I also feel…


Robbie White died at 2:30 pm on Monday, June 11th, 2018.

It’s still unclear what happened. Montgomery County officer Anand Badgujar responded to a 911 call concerning a “suspicious person” on Three Oaks Drive, and eventually requested backup. Police claimed the two-year veteran drew his firearm only after White attacked him, unprovoked; the filed police report details several unsuccessful attempts to pepper spray and contains White before any shots were fired. The Montgomery County Police Department (MCPD) subsequently placed Badgujar on paid administrative leave.

I’m not convinced. The MCPD only released body-cam footage after public protest, and though it’s not…


Senator Bernie Sanders will not be, now or ever, President of the United States of America. The senator suspended his campaign earlier today, ending his second presidential bid in five years and clearing the path to the Democratic nomination for former vice president Joe Biden. It’s a decision that marks the end of a historically complex primary season; even despite Sanders’ outright endorsement, Biden looks set to challenge Trump on behalf of the DNC this November.

I’d like to honor Sanders’ capitulation with a broad assessment of his larger campaign failings. For all that I believe the senator gets right…


It’s ironically antithetical that Senator Bernie Sanders’ prestige as a pure, transcendentally clean politician is now being marred by his supporters’ viral and largely digital reputation as aggressive, quick-tempered, ride-or-die fanatics. Recent controversy over sexist allegations against the progressive icon further highlight this contrast; much of Sanders’ base viciously refuses to even entertain the possibility that their champion once incorrectly analyzed gendered presidential campaign strategy, instead choosing to declare those levying the charge (primarily CNN and Senator Elizabeth Warren) liars and elite political puppets. …


It’s difficult to truly measure the value of last week’s Democratic debate. Historically, fourth-round primary debates have featured a few politically established individuals responding to meaningful moderator questions, exchanging policy critique and pitching personal platforms to a party audience. Tuesday’s debate, antithetically, devolved into a surreal twelve-person free-for-all throughout which would-be party nominees routinely and loudly interrupted one another in poorly veiled attempts to scavenge as much screen time as possible. Still, the chaos that was this campaign’s fourth debate ultimately did provide a certain amount of clarity — new confrontation between unfamiliar candidates engendered unusually policy heavy dialogue, even…


Harry Maguire, $99.18 million. Aaron Wan-Bissaka, $62.70 million. Daniel James, $19.38 million.

Though none of these signings are even near icon Paul Pogba’s 2016 transfer fee (roughly $117 million), it is unquestionable that Manchester United splashed some serious cash in this year’s English Premier League (EPL) summer transfer window. While that’s good news for diehard United fans like me — optimistically, after all, it’s indication that our ascendance is imminent — the upward trend in spending is less sanguine for others.

The truth is, for all that Manchester United gets right, they get one thing incredibly wrong: their support staff…


Antithetically, this website is not the product of any sort of personal belief that my thoughts have external value. Nor do I publish my poetry or paperbacks for alien judgment. I write, primarily, because it’s cathartic. Sharing my work with others is secondary; I am much more interested in the act of creation itself than extrinsic critique and appraisal. “Better to write for yourself and have no public,” once said esteemed writer and literary critic Cyril Connolly, “Than to write for the public and have no self.”

Unfortunately, this courtesy — that is, allowance to engage in activities for purely…


Genre conventions — especially those concerning authenticity and traditionalism, both fundamental characteristics of country music — are incredibly difficult to define. They’re even harder to regulate. That’s why the raging controversy about “Old Town Road,” the hit single from Atlanta-based rapper Lil Nas X, is so important. The song has provoked fierce debates on race, the Nashville establishment, and musical genres.

If you haven’t heard the track yet, take a moment to check it out before continuing this article. Even listening to just the first 30 seconds will give you a pretty good idea of what everyone’s talking about.

Essentially…

Nick Shereikis

Hi! I’m Nick. I‘m interested in political rhetoric, mental health, and Manchester United — and I write sometimes. Learn more at nickshereikis.com.

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